I just read the report in the newspapers about the ugly incident that happened to quan yi feng. And of course, I went to read addy's blog too. Hai. I feel so appalled by how anyone can do such a thing to others. GRR! Even if there were miscommunications, I feel that yi feng should not have been asked to wear something which isn't even her measurements and then later scolded for wearing the beige gown at the wrong time. IT'S NOT HER FAULT! I'm all angsty right now. Adding on, the gown which was specially sourced by addy and plus the cartier jewellery which were supposed to be worn together with the gown were totally not worn at all for the star awards just because of like what addy said on his blog, someone just had to 为了个人名利 and make yi feng wear the first outfit at the starting of the show. And at the end, yi feng even had to apologise for really absolutely nothing.

And since, I'm quite an ardent fan of yi feng, I feel angered by the way she's being treated. Totally unacceptable. I hate it when people do things just for the sake of themselves and their "face" in this case.

And I'm so sad for both addy and yi feng. Really. sigh.
Addy, if you're reading this, don't feel 失败 anymore k? Cheer up! You were not the cause of the whole thing. I'm very very sure you already did your very best! Really! And everyone whom you styled that night shone brightly on stage. You have not failed!
And I'm really glad yi feng was able to get into the top 10 most popular female artistes. She still shone brightly despite the unhappiness backstage and gave the most touching speech of all! Gambatte yi feng! You have my support and of course, the support from all your other fans too!

It's hardly a joke.

According to the latest news reports, about 1200 over people in mexico have been infected with the swine flu and 152 dead. Just within less than 2 days, the death toll rose from 68 to 152. Can you believe it?
The US, Thailand, Korea, Spain, Hong Kong, New Zealand, have also been affected.
The exact place of origin has not been found yet, though it's within Mexico, that's for sure.
Singapore, being an efficient country, has changed it's health safety zone from green to yellow. And of course, necessary precaution measures have been taken at the airport, in hospitals and schools.
Though the deaths due to swine flu is currently confined to the infected ones in Mexico, it would not be surprising at all when it happens to those in other countries too.

I just read some celebrities' blogs. And I read david gan's also. Hmm, I think that the point he made in his post about the Star Awards is valid. 100% valid. He mentioned about journalists commenting about the wearing of short outfits being inappropriate for the awards. I feel that the outfits can be decided according to the season that's coming and the trend of the season too. That's outright nothing wrong with that at all.
Though I didn't read the reports, I suppose the one whom they commented about the short outfit should be zoe, our caldecott queen. Please, keep comments without any grounds to yourself and not write outrageous comments down in the newspapers. Her outfit in my opinion was not inappropriate at all, and in fact, it's gorgeously pretty. It's just different from the usual. And everyone of them were extremely gorgeous on sunday night thanks to their stylists, make-up artists and hairstylists. Everyone put in so much effort! So shoo if you don't like anything about it.

I can't stand the fact that people make baseless remarks about others, and most probably out of jealousness.
It has occurred to me too. When I had some things that some people do not have, they start talking behind my back and go around spreading rumours. Please grow up.

Congrats!

最佳男主角-汉玮

最佳女主角-薇秀

最佳男配角-初明

最佳女配角-向云 and 黄慧

10 most popular male artistes!

王禄江
陈汉玮
李铭顺
黄俊雄
程旭辉
李国煌
Pornsak
戚玉武
郑斌辉
郑各评

10 most popular female artistes!

陈靓瑄
李锦梅
欧萱
刘芷绚
白薇秀
权怡凤
瑞恩
赖怡伶
向云
林湘萍

I'm really really really happy for them! Especially some of them whom I feel put in so much effort into the shows in the past year!
For han wei, chu ming and xiang yun, I felt especially emotional when their names were being read out! I don't know exactly why but tears started rolling out of my eyes. They were indeed the ones whom I think went all out for their roles, not just to act for their roles, but integrate themselves into the role itself.
And bryan! You're not so easily forgotten:) see, you "passed" the "examination" though you went missing almost throughout the year. :D:D


Okay, they had their turn, when would good news be mine? It's about time for my turn.

Tonight's the very night, where the actors and actresses get their "result slips". Well, it isn't exactly dooms day I would say. It's always nice to see yourself walking up the stage to recdive the prizes and even if you do not win any prizes, it does not mean that you failed. Yes, tonight's the long awaited star awards! And tomorrow, there's definitely a splash of colours of star awards on the newspapers! :)

Don't worry my friends, I'll be supporting you from home, since I can't go there cos my exams are approaching. I'll try to go for the next one though. It's something definitely worth looking forward to!

Who will win the coveted titles? We can predict but we can't judge. In each of our hearts, different actors or actresses may be our personal heroes in their individual shows. We'll just leave it to luck to carry them through tonight. And I hope you'll have a whale of a time tonight at the banquet and the awards itself.

Here's a list of the lucky ones and their telepoll:

Adrian Pang 彭耀顺 1900-112-2012
Bryan Wong 王禄江 1900-112-2018
Chen Han Wei 陈汉玮 1900-112-2014
Chen Shu Cheng 陈澍城 1900-112-2001
Christopher Lee 李铭顺 1900-112-2017
Elvin Ng 黄俊雄 1900-112-2015
Guo Liang 郭亮 1900-112-2016
Gurmit Singh 葛米星 1900-112-2013
Henry Thia 程旭辉 1900-112-2010
Huang Wen Yong 黄文永 1900-112-2020
Marcus Chin 陈建彬 1900-112-2007
Mark Lee 李国煌 1900-112-2011
Pierre Png 方展发 1900-112-2008
Pornsak 1900-112-2009
Qi Yuwu 戚玉武 1900-112-2006
Richard Low 刘谦益 1900-112-2019
Tay Ping Hui 郑斌辉 1900-112-2003
Zhang Yao Dong 张耀栋 1900-112-2002
Zheng Ge Ping 郑各评 1900-112-2005
Zhu Hou Ren 朱厚任 1900-112-2004

Dawn Yeoh 姚懿珊 1900-112-2024
Felicia Chin 陈靓瑄 1900-112-2026
Fiona Xie 谢宛谕 1900-112-2036
Hong Hui Fang 洪慧芳 1900-112-2023
Ivy Lee 李锦梅 1900-112-2022
Jeanette Aw 欧萱 1900-112-2028
Jesseca Liu 刘芷绚 1900-112-2039
Jin Yin Ji金银姬 1900-112-2035
Joanne Peh白薇秀 1900-112-2037
Kym Ng 鐘琴 1900-112-2032
Lin Mei Jiao 林梅娇 1900-112-2034
Michelle Chia 谢韵仪 1900-112-2027
Michelle Chong 庄米雪 1900-112-2029
Pan Ling Ling 潘玲玲 1900-112-2031
Patricia Mok 莫小玲 1900-112-2021
Quan Yi Fong 权怡凤 1900-112-2030
Rui En瑞恩 1900-112-2033
Vivian Lai 赖怡伶 1900-112-2040
Xiang Yun 向云 1900-112-2038
Yvonne Lim 林湘萍 1900-112-2025

红星大奖2009各大奖项入围名单

最佳电视剧
不凡的爱
一房半厅一水缸
心花朵朵开I
一切完美
黄金路
小娘惹

最佳男主角
彭耀顺／奶爸百分百
陈汉玮／不凡的爱
黄文永／一房半厅一水缸
方展发／小娘惹
戚玉武／小娘惹
郑斌辉／黄金路

最佳女主角
陈莉萍／一房半厅一水缸
陈莉萍／黄金路
范文芳／沸腾冰点
陈靚瑄／黄金路
欧萱／小娘惹
白薇秀／小娘惹

最佳男配角
周初明／黄金路
戴阳天／小娘惹
林明伦／小娘惹
姚玟隆／小娘惹
章缜翔／小娘惹
朱厚任／沸腾冰点

最佳女配角
郭蕙雯／小娘惹
李茵珠／小娘惹
林梅娇／小娘惹
黄慧／小娘惹
向云／小娘惹
蔡佩璇／黄金路

最佳新人奖
陈邦鋆
戴阳天
杨伟烈
许雅慧
蔡琦慧
张振寰

最佳新闻播报/时事主持人
林启元
黄秀玲
董素华
王征
张海洁
赵文蓓

最佳综艺主持人
李铭顺／心晴大动员
权怡凤／心晴大动员
鐘琴／抢摊大行动
李腾／都市大发现３
陈建彬／黄金年华之斗歌竞艺2008
郭亮／艺点心思

最佳资讯节目主持人
李心钰／稀游记２
李心钰／与心共舞
蔡礼莲／寻找原之味
许振荣／旅游线上我在行
郭亮／亮点人生 - 真情无障碍
林佩芬／简单就是美

青苹果奖
胡康乐／绝对佳人
陈宇萱／小娘惹
黄馨仪／心花朵朵开I
彭修轩／一房半厅一水缸
林咏谊／一切完美
林家安／不凡的爱

最佳综艺节目
抢摊大行动
艺点心思
Smart省钱王2
心晴大动员
至尊厨王2
非常Superband

最佳资讯节目
与心共舞
美食寻根
青涩部落格
我们的大日子2
星期二特写: 生死一线
星期二特写: SARS后的天空

最佳综艺特备节目
Ｓ－ＰＯＰ万岁！
音乐大典
红星大奖之戏剧情牵25
才华横溢出新秀2007
总决赛非常Superband – 大决战
45载光芒8方贺台庆
让爱川流不息

最佳主题曲
如燕 ／小娘惹 /Olivia Ong
屋檐 ／一房半厅一水缸／亦迅幻
听／叮当神探／陈世维
我知道我变漂亮了／一切完美／石欣卉
路／黄金路／迷路兵
心花朵朵开／心花朵朵开II／苏智诚

Well, like what one of my dear junior posted on her blog, haha yes, here I am sitting waiting and wishing too!
I wonder if my good news will ever come at all. It's quite devastating and nerve wrecking going through it a 2nd time altogether. Okay, shall stay positive:) yes, I'm still waiting for my good news. And I believe that it'll come soon.

I'm all cooped up at home today trying to revise and try out the accounting tutorials and go through the thick set of notes. I hope the effort pays off. And I've decided to use the same strategy as I used during o'levels. Just pick out the topics that are important and make sure those are well glued to my head and then do well for it. I know it'll work!
Statistics later in the day. I'm sure it'll make me a tad happier. :D

Oh yes, I totally forgot to blog about the wind which swept through singapore on thursday night. Oh dear, it was likened to the tornado( a little exagerrated) First, I heard sounds and I told myself, "Oh no, something is coming from outside!" and within a matter of seconds, my papers were flying everywhere and I was frantically trying to catch all of them. Closed the window and looked out. Even the largest of trees standing strong by the road were swaying along with the wind. According to the news, this has not happened for a good nine years! wow!
The weather in the day has been killing for the past few weeks. Sorching, even in the early mornings where everything's supposed to be cool and nice. Global climate change is slowly but definitely taking charge. How can we humans just sit here and watch? Something must be done about the rubbish that are thrown away each day. Something must be done to reduce the number of cars on the roads in developed countries drastically. And more trees ought to be planted.
I wouldn't be surprised if one day, historical records show that humans have become extinct, judging by the way the climate is changing. Please, the icecaps at north and south pole are melting at a rate never been seen before. It's intimidating.

I can't wait for monday evening! haha. Though I can't stay for the thing till too late. hmm. But it still feels rather good that I'm going.

Okay, I need to study more! Exams are really coming. And accounting is still in a big mess. I hate you accounting, I AM GOING TO CONQUER YOU once and for all!

And, please please please call me. I'm wishing hard. Praying hard with my dearest friends who are in the same predicament as me.

The world looks crystal clear right now because I changed my contacts to that my my correct degree! YAY!
Bye blurry world!

Can't think of much to blog right now. So I'm going back to my studies. :)

I really don't know how to describe my feelings after coming to know that my rv dance juniors(now in nj) got gold with honours for their chinese dance! :D:D:D I feel so happy for them though i wasn't from nj but at least we were once from the same dance troupe and went through 1 syf together. I miss dancing times, be it times in rvds or times with sdt, though the one with jj modern dance is too short for me to comment about and further more, I was just a guest dancer with them according to my school testimonial.
Anyway, yes, although I was just a small fry in rvds, the dancing times with good friends there just made me happy and they were memorable.
The nights I spent at singapore dance theatre learning ballet also made me feel contented. I know I must go back to sdt for ballet, after exams. I can't wait! And I want to join their performance later in the year, okay, if I have the time.

And I can't wait for so many exciting things after exams! Outings, dance, volunteering, media courses! AHH here I come! Plus shopping with my dear cousins of course!
Plus I'm waiting for good news and yes, I believe it'll happen soon soon soon!

Makes me so motivated to study! HEHEE! I want to do super well for my upcoming exams!
It's coming in 2 weeks. And ending in 5 weeks thereabout.

On a side note, over the past 2 days, I heard so many people speaking in all sorts of different languages on the bus and mrt! OOOHH, the beauty of languages. Though I don't know why some people choose to discriminate certain languages, but to me, the languages are just beautiful. I'm aiming to master at least 10 languages before the age of 35.

How great words and their meanings be interpreted! Today while I was studying with qingyue, indeed, something which she said struck me. In fact, I think it's true. She told me that there's 2 ways which people can interpret forces, not in the literal sense though. According to chemists, positive attract negative. To psychologists, however, positive attracts positive. I believe in the latter! It actually means, if you choose to think positive, then something positive will happen to you. Okay, I'll think positive from this moment on! It's way cool! The essence of language itself lies in the varying ways one can interpret the words used. That's why I'm so interested in studying anything to do with languages. Oh man, I hope I can get in!
POSITIVE ATTRACTS POSITIVE is my mantra from now on! :):)

Anyway, I think I did adsorb what I studied today though I wouldn't say it's a lot. Jia you to me! Yes, I can do it!

I feel the energy being strained from my puny body. It isn't very good for a little person like me I guess. I don't know. I need to indulge in my favourite food! AAAHH! ok nevermind what I just said. It's purely out of sheer stupidity.

Sometimes, I feel that I have done my part and yet the world seemed so unfair in reciprocating my effort. I've been reading david gan's blog recently and he kept talking about karma and the world being unfair. or rather it's the people. Actually, I quite agree with him that what goes around comes around. Maybe I just haven't been gaining enough good karma? Something which I think just recently I started telling myself. I don't know. I've been helping people these days. Is it enough good karma already? People deny you when you've already put in your outmost effort? That's totally frustrating. Ok, that doesn't directly apply to me but I'm just stating something which would definitely happen to us in our daily lives. Who are we to judge others? We, are judges of ourselves.

Oh, and I'm still waiting for something important. Hope it comes soon. And good news please!

Anyway, on a side note, I think my blog is becoming more and more boring, with ramblings of my life and such. I'll try to blog more about current events instead of complaining or blabbering. Sometimes I can't even stand myself typing such things here. So okay, improvement soon.

Exams in about 2 weeks time! Should I be happy? Actually, I should right? Cause once exams are gone, holidays are here!
Quite contrary to the opinions of most people, I actually enjoy working life more than study life. I guess it's because I really like to interact with people and have something different everyday. Though I like reading too, but exams are burdensome. I prefer projects suddenly! Oh wells.

I WANT CHANGE! CHANGE COME QUICKLY AND BE MY SAVIOUR! BRING ME TO WHERE I REALLY SHOULD BE. Oh man, I really hope my birthday wishes will be granted!
I don't want be passion to be put to waste.

I swear it's driving me crazy. Seriously.
Oh well. Hope something good does come out of it.
My tiny brain is stuffed up with so many things right now and it's not helping.

Worried worried worried. to the point of desperation.
I want a good reply quick!

And getting a letter from her won't be easy too I suppose.

Actually, I have pretty nothing much to update about today. Just felt like coming to my blog to type some things out which you probably wouldn't even understand.

argh. my friends, don't you feel the seering frustration? Like when there's something important and there's pretty much nothing you can do about it. It's just waiting that you can do. It's a horrible feeling. Totally.
And it's much worse when exams are approaching well at the same time and you need an ideal situation between the both.

Okay, I'm really blabbering too much here for no apparent reason.


ps. I promise I'll be good. please give me the chance to get it!

And weirdly, I suddenly had the urge to apply for the unis in aussie. I don't know why. Maybe it's a way to get away from everything. Ok, but I didn't. LOL. I don't want to leave my dear island singapore.

I've been keeping a close watch on the situation in thailand for the past week or so through the media and internet. I have a thai friend but have not talked to him for a long long time. Well, I don't think it's all that appropriate to ask him about the thai civilian views on their government and issues along this line I guess. Though I would really like to find out first hand from a thai living in thailand about his views and why the people reacted in that way, etc. I wouldn't mention any controversial issues here on my blog where I don't know who from all over the world will have access to. But I just feel that violence does not solve problems at all. Not the least bit. Will the reds come out again after they've rested enough and muster up unity among themselves? Will the thai government continue to use harsh methods of stopping them? Or will the thai government use peaceful negotiations to apeace the situation? No matter how each party react, this is definitely not an easy task to deal with. I think it's such a pity that the ASEAN Summit has to be called off due to the protests. Most of the leaders were already there in thailand.


Anyway, exams are coming! It's creeping nearer and nearer. I'm trying to mug as best as possible so that I'll be able to do well in the exams. And yet, at the same time I still need to think about other issues. Gosh. I need everything to come into order.
It's so worrying when you know that's your dream and you have no idea if it's going to be offered to you or being denied. I'm definitely not someone who just sit there and think and think but do nothing about it, though I'd admit I put a lot of thought into it. At least I've done something about it. So now, I'm playing a few waiting games. Wouldn't it be nice if everything turns out as I dream of and not clash. PLEASE PLEASE do not clash!
Then after exams, I can settle my job or internship or apprenticeship or course whichever comes along the way. I don't mind the one that doesn't offer remuneration actually. haha:)
I would just say, I'm chasing my dreams with much enthusiasm and passion and will not stop till I achieve it.
Please XX XXXX, please help me out with the xxxxxx. I believe you will and I will believe in myself too.

The world seems to be in an unwanted mess right now. Look at the political situation in thailand. Look at the earthquake struck italy. Look at the Singaporeans who were affected by the indian rojak contamination and the steamboat contamination. Look at how we are in the economic mess, with everyone trying to scramble out of it in vain. Look at how we are caught in this difficult situation where we're trying to decide on our future. What does our future hold for us? No one could tell.
Will time explain everything? Will it cure all pain?
Will we get what we want so badly?
I sure hope so.

I do have the feeling that everything will turn out right and what I wanted. Hope the feeling's right.

It's such a pain to play the waiting game, with everything unsure. I guess you wouldn't understand what I'm blabbering about here unless you know me or talked to me within the past couple of months.
So many of us, with so little places opened. What could be worse than that? Please please please do not kick me out! I know it's not just me alone in the waiting game, many of my good friends are and the results of it will soon show but it's still making everyone live in worry for the time of waiting. I haven't felt so horrible in my life as now. Let me be truimphant please.

On a lighter note, easter! I remember when I was younger, I used to buy easter eggs made of chocolate and would be jumping around whenever I have them. Felt like a long time passed.

And I'm glad I studied ibm yesterday. Isn't as loathsome as before but still overspilling content in my opinion. Yes, I totally agree with Dr Amos Witztum that the uk lecturers shouldn't come just a month before the exams but should start giving us lectures right from the start of the year. SIM and LSE should make arrangments for this seriously. I prefer the LSE lecturers way much than the local ones. The way they lecture that is.

I'm worried about so many things.

Have you wondered whether you should have done this and that?

But I believe everything will turn out alright.

Chasing my dreams ain't easy at all.

But I know I must try.

Yes, I'm trying.

And I'm trying to get enough good karma. Haaha:)

Hopefully I'll be able to taste the fruits of my labour soon.

Recently I've been taking comfort in listening to certain radio stations and watching the television. Seriously, it does help. Calms the senses.

It just rained moments ago and now the sun's out. Rain's gone. :):)

When will I receive the replies?? I WANT GOOD NEWS! yes, i want nothing but good news. Will it come true? I surely hope it does. Don't leave me in nothingness please.

Oh, over the past week, I've been attending the uk lectures. Not bad really! But the burdensome exams are coming up soon. It's scary. I want to do very well. I'm not someone who merely wants well, I want it to turn out very very well.

How I wish all that I planned will come out in a perfect picture!

I'm praying hard. And yes, getting good karma by helping the needy.

Attended statistics lecture by the UK lecturer on tuesday. I realised only now that I haven't blogged about it yet. Well, Dr Celia Phillips' lecture was really fun! :) She was rather humorous during the 6 hour lecture and told us anecdotes too. The stats prelim wasn't exactly well done in my opinion, though Dr Celia told me it was. Hmm, I don't know but the mean mark for stats across the board for sim was 48%, which is really pathetic.
Anyway, I do feel motivated to study after Dr Celia's lecture. But the exams are really burdensome. And it's in about 4 weeks time. I haven't touched accounting. ohno! And no matter what, I have to sit for the exams...even if...yes.
Now i feel the result of not having projects. Don't you other LSE students agree with me?

Thou shalt give up not.
:)