I realised I haven't posted photos here in this space for a long time.

Cause I haven't been in the mood to and blogger takes a million years to upload photos.

In any case, HAHA the narcissistic me decided to post some photos here today to liven up my word filled posts.

And, here's a photo of the initial stages in the building of the sentosa IR. When you go there now, it doesn't look, like that anymore! The building is really fast! Seriously. Considering that I seen it from when it was in it's baby stages when all the mud were being dug out till now, the real buildings can be seen from the outside when you take the sentosa express.

I've been really busy and all these couple of weeks. So many things to settle. But at least everything is going smoothly and almost completed. :)
Hope for good news soon. I'm not divulging anything right here on my blog. Well, at least not for now.
Wish me luck people!
:D:D

When frustration, nervousness, anxiousness kicks in all at one go, what will you do?
You can choose the path of dwindling roads, which spells tough times ahead awaiting you to charge ahead with courage and confidence and a never say die attitude, and will in the end lead you to a shining headstart.
You can choose to veer from the path, get lost in uncertainties and end up in a lost world.
Which would you choose?
I would choose the former.
Undoubtedly, it'll be likened to living in a whirl wind, but you know that you are heading in the direction you want.
I know, nothing will change the past.
But I'm sure the future ahead is vast, embracing us into kind arms and guiding us.
Do not undermine that decision.
Push on!

I hope everything will turn out as how I want it to be.

As for the internship with people's association with I was offered, I decided that I should be responsible enough to inform SIM that I probably wouldn't be able to make it cause I may be offered other stuff. I feel so bad. Seriously. Violet(the person in charge) replied my email saying that they've put in a lot of effort on it and such. oh gosh. Really really really sorry. But luckily I decided to inform her now instead of waiting till last minute, which will definitely be even worse. SORRY!

But for now, I really hope the apprenticeship interview will be here soon and the uni applications will go smoothly. That's my wishes for now.

Stressed.
That one word, although being overused in my opinion, practically sums up how I'm feeling for these few days.
Okay, maybe I'm just thoroughly tensed up and nervous.
I really hope the both places will be offered to me.

Oh yes! Thanks for helping me! If you do chance upon my blog, I guess you know I'm referring to you:D I'll give u a treat if we can both find the time when you're not that busy yep!

On a side note, I'm being offered a particular internship. Wondering if I should reject it. Cause I may be offered other things. And hopefully, if I'm offered the places as mentioned above, I wouldn't even be considered part of it already.

I'm hoping, wishing, praying for the best!
I'm staying optimistic no matter what.
Give me your blessings and wish me luck!

The tension rises as the dates draw near. Something which can't be helped. Nervousness surround though a slight relief yesterday.
Can it end up as a pleasant surprise for everyone? I genuinely hope so. At least for those who care.
There's no letting go.
I believe.
All the way.

TGIF!

Thank god it's friday. BUT today's another one of those friday the 13th! Though I'm not that superstitious, but I would avoid doing important stuff on days like that and I would advise you to do the same. Better for prevention isn't it?

Anyway, I'm blogging from the library. Feels a little weird. Today's probably another study day. I need to study to make up for the lost time those days that I can't help being preoccupied by other important matters.
Okay, actually I'm starting to think ibm isn't such a chore after all. It's quite interesting in fact. Certain topics within it I mean.
On a side note, I think I am getting back the literature side of me. Which explains why I felt the urge to read ibm in more detail after the recently over prelims.

I think I'm kind of getting closer to my dream. yay!
I would do almost anything to fulfil it:) within legal and moral means of course! duh!


When the rain is gone,
will you still be there?
Will my wishes be fulfilled?
I would like to think the positive way.
I want it badly.
No matter how hard,
I'll continue reaching out.

Who says it's impossible?

Grateful that you're okay.
Wishes do come true,
if you make them with all your heart
and sincerity.
I believe.
I believe that you will not fail me.

I will face it with confidence.
With the never-say-die energizer spirit.
I wish with all my heart.
Let me be a shining star
in that unmeasurable universe.
I will never give up.
No I will not.
Even if I seem all that tiny and unsignificant
I will give my very best
with no evidence of hiding.

The light at the end of the rainbow will guide me.

I love everything about it.

Hey my dear friends out there! Those whom just got your Alevel results:) I haven't the slightest idea how some of you guys did cause I did not receive replies from you. Please don't get offended if you happen to have received my sms and not did well, I was just concerned. Don't fret if you didn't score well enough or if you hadn't met your own expectations alright? I don't know how else to put this to you guys but like the usual saying, "You've already put in your best." And don't forget, there's always whole truckloads of opportunities out there, yes despite the economic demise. I understand how you people feel because that was how I felt when I got my results a year ago. Maybe you should take the time to realise what is it that you really want to do in future and not just get yourself into something which you might regret. An alternative would be getting a degree that's not so specialised so that you still can work in other fields in future.
I took the time I had to sit back and think what I really wanted other than my initial dream of becoming a vet but couldn't cause I'm not planning to study overseas. I talked to people from different fields. And I tried out a workshop which finally led me to find a passion in myself which I didn't really know existed within except for the fact that I liked writing.
All the best to all of us applying yea! Hopefully ALL of us will get into whichever we would like to pursue in future. :D:D

Prelims are officially over for me! Alright, ibm wasn't as bad as I thought. At least I could still generate out some points, though not 100% confirmed but still, it wasn't that bad. That's all I can say.

Well well. prelims are over. So it spells the time to get my brain focused on the re-applications. I really really really want to get into communications in either nus or ntu. Someone from the admissions there, please alleviate my suffering and accept me in. It would be heaven to get in. Of course, it'll take me a step closer to my future career too:) PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I'll do my very very very best when I'm in!

Haha, currently I'm thinking of what to write for the extra part. hmm. must be something good enough to let me get in there!

Oh and I need to save money to go for the SMA 1 day course I just applied for! haha. I will definitely save up enough to pay before the course! Though it's of quite a crazy amount I admit. But I must go for it. To boost my application and plus it's my interest.

It's my birthday today! :D Well, today marks quite a significant transition to the next important phase in my life bacause it's the day I join the big 20 club. I feel like I'm aging. But hopefully older and wiser. Had dinner at this korean restaurant in jurong point. The food there is always satisfying! Everyone should go try it out. It's at the new food court at the new wing of jurong point.

I have something I must mention. Feel so strongly about what a particular shop in jurong point sells. It sells wallets, bags and belts which are made of real stingray leather. Maybe it feels nice to own one but stingrays are becoming endangered. I don't think it's morally ethical to retail such items. Neither is it morally ethical to buy such items in my opinion. If this applies to products made from ostrich skin, snake skin and crocodile skin, don't you guys think it should apply all the same to stingray skin too? Just think about it.

I got the inspiration to write this from one of the articles I found on the straits times just this morning, with the title "What the wild things are" by Charles Siebert.

With reference to the stabbing of an NTU professor by an international student this week, I would like to compare the incident to a chimpanzee attack which happened about a month ago. Friends and family of the international student most probably wouldn't know what was going through his mind when he stabbed his professor. After the lethal outburst, leaving the professor seriously injured, it is definitely mind boggling to many of us. Similar to the incident of the pet chimpanzee, Travis in Stamford, Connecticut, where a woman was robbed of her hands, eyesight and part of her face. These two incidents left me astounded. Aren't human beings supposed to be the 'primates with the so-called higher cognitive functions'? Why would a human then, stab another without any warning? Is the killing the only way out to problems he faced? This incident is definitely not a one off incident, with another similar one happening at nus in the past. What is it that made these otherwise wise students to carry out such an unbelievable act?
Well, I guess that would be something which even the best of psychologists wouldn't have been able to reason out or predict. Maybe stress is one of the reasons? We can only guess.
Now that such incidents occur, shouldn't we ask ourselves how are we different from apes who are deemed to be of lesser reasoning ability than us?

Networking. Something which a lot of people only do when they're met with dire straits.
Where do we draw the line between socialising and networking? The line seems so misty that very often, we mistake one for the other.
Anyway, I've always loved networking with people. Be it cleaners, bosses, strangers, tourists, leaders.
After listening to Genevieve's presentation today, I just couldn't help but agree to what she said 100%. It's really true. Networking is something that all of us should do, no matter it's good times or bad times. In actual fact, during good times, all the more, we should network with people.

To my friends getting their results tomorrow, ALL THE BEST! Don't worry cause there's so many opportunities everywhere! No matter what it turns out to be, there's definitely a door for you.


on a side note, I love writing! :D and I want to continue writing in future. give me the chance to.

Well, today has been most eventful plus uneventful all packed into a day.

Uneventful? well. My handphone slipped from my fingers while I was in the toilet and fell straight into the toilet bowl. It's the first time something like that happened to me. Totally unexpected. Fortunately, there weren't any contents in the bowl, which made me heave a sigh of relief. Today's a handphone problem day. Vanessa left her handphone in her dad's car when she got off. So both of us made do without phones for the morning. Haha.

Eventful? Because maths prelims were done well though not perfectly as I wanted. Then I got my new hp in the afternoon because the old one went haywire after dropping into the bowl. Got the Nokia 7310 Supernova. I really like the model's name and design a lot! Me and alicia had herbal chicken at JP and then coffee:) We had a little luxury of time to shop around for quite a while. And after that, I decided to pop by Twister to have my fringe cut. It's been 2 months since I last did my hair. I'm finally having full fringe. Glad that addy suggested it. Looks not bad on me:D:D Yay thanks. And alvius for doing a great cut:)

Here's before:

And after:

With satisfaction on the hair part, now I can start studying ibm. Haha.

Good luck to me for my ibm prelim...last paper!

What is courage?

In my opinion, it is when you are willing to step out of your comfort zone to do something which seem impossible or which you previously feared. Isn't it really great when you finally achieve or even decide to try something which you have never dared to do? I genuinely think so.
It's not the praises that are showered upon you by your family, relatives and friends that make it worth. It's the sense of self-achievement that really make it worth the while. You'll definitely go, "I finally did it!" not forgetting, a punch in the air, or maybe, tears of joy.
It's not something bestowed upon everyone, which makes it so special.

And how about the courage of seeking dreams? For me, I really wouldn't want to do something that really isn't what I want in future. I know my path. And I will try my best to seek it.
I've made my decision and I will go all out for it. No regrets. I've pondered on for just a tad too long. But I'm glad I finally found the courage to.

How about you?