My life is currently swamped with nothing but schoolwork.
Totally MAD.

I badly want to go back to work at least part time but don't have the time. Sigh.
I feel that I'm so lucky that I'm always offered jobs, and at places where I really want to be, but I just do not have the time to work because school is horribly busy.
Don't get me wrong, I'm actually doing rather okay in school. But just overwhelmed by the excessive amount of work given.

I'm in a state of wanting self indulgence, which in most of my friends' eyes, would not be a very good thing because it spells me spending money.
I want to shop and spend money! Roar!

I want to buy:
Masks
Clothes (both unknown labels and designer labels)
New nail polish
Korean stuff
Cosmetics

Those are already enough to kill my pocket.

I'm currently halfway through an essay. Need to complete it soon because I still have com blog, esl online journal, soc poster proposal. Not to forget, to study for com quiz next tues and cse midterms next friday.
I'll be in deep shit if I don't complete all those quick!

I'll be back to blog after I complete a few of those.

Why do I always not have time to do the things I like? And why do I always seem so preoccupied with so many things? And why do people stop me from doing things that I wish to do?

I'm feeling the frustration yet again. And now I can't confide in my grandma because she's no longer around.
You can say that I'm emotional but well, I still have to tell you, I'm tearing almost everyday now. I just can't get over the fact that my most beloved person on earth is gone. GONE.

Although school's been great, I think that something is lacking. I prefer my working life. I'm looking forward to life after graduation, which is just about 2 years away. I miss my working colleagues, especially those whom I got to know during my 3 month internship stint. Actually, my small boss called me up the other day to ask me back to do a programme part time. But I can't because of my school schedule. Okay nevermind. I'll just concentrate on my studies for now and after graduation, hopefully I'll be back at the same company.

And I miss ballet. I really need my weekly dose of ballet. It helps bring the frustration towards life away. Miraculously. I don't know how. But it just does it. And I haven't been doing ballet for almost a year now. Imagine how much emotions are bottled up inside.

Enough of crazy rambling. Back to my sociology notes and textbook.